=D

Yesterday my brother got me Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. He didn't pre-order it, but he still got it. Why? Cause he bought it from a shop from the airport, the inside area. Nyehaha. So I haven't started on it yet, sadly. I read first few pages last night, didn't understand. So I shall kill myself for not reading the past 2 books. Well, I think I'll shall try again today. Haha.

Thank you, abang. Very very much. =)

And yes, I got a new haircut too. If anybody seen me loitering around causeway point or the library, you would have seen it. But I knew barely anyone recognised me. Yep, I got a vogue hairstyle. No more straight hair, and as Syamil said it, "eh! That is like your hair last time." I wondered which hair, but I knew he meant the secondary 1 hair. It's real short too, can't tie it up. So hello to a new hairdo! (no more straightening!)


Haha. I guess that's all that's been happening. And I want go to a jemputan. Every weekend there's bound to be someone I see wearing nice clothes and going to eat good food and seeing someone getting married. Grr, some relative of mine, get married quuick! Hahaa.

I've been reading a lot. Yeah!

So errm, okay that's all for today. Haha.

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Class 4/5 2007 of Riverside Secondary.
With form teacher, Ms Lim. All 41 of us is in that picture.

I'm going to miss this class. The class of 2 years. All different types of people. We learn to appreciate each other as the days pass by. =)


Today is Racial Harmony Day. Okay actually tomorrow, but celebrations are today. So what happened? Concert in the morning. I don't have much comments on that. Then took some pictures as a school, all graduating people wanted to be at the front. Haha. Last year laa, what to doo. Then went back to class, physics then SS. Then went to take that class photo.

Recess, I sort of became the waitress for that day. Haha. I walked back and forth the canteen. Yeah then took some photos, and went back to class. Amaths lesson. I read a bit of my storybook, then went to sleep. Hehe.

After school, hmms. I kepoh-ed here and there to take pictures. I'm that kind of person who need to have many pictures taken on a certain event. And noooo, this year it barely reached 80 photos. Gaaah. It's okay Hana, calm down. =)

Yeah then walked about, in the end I decided to go home and change, and came back within half an hour. Haha. Sat around, till about 2.15 and went back to school. Bumped into that lady again, and we started making ridiculous stories. Haha. Walked around school first, got Pink Dolphin and went up to class.

Today's comprehension was rather hard, or maybe cause I was too sleepy to get anything into my head. But I took my time today. Haha. Yeah then I didn't know where to go. I slowly went downstairs, and bumped into Yong Lin. Talking about stuffs, aah I miss working. Haha.

Then I met my darling, and we sat and talked and kept each other company.
((:

Summary of the day, not too good. I wasn't in the best of moods. And I'm sticking to this slogan, "Tomorrow Will Be A Better Day!"


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It's been 4 days since I last updated! Alright, Hana is a lazy bum. Nothing amusing, right?

Alright first thing first,

Congratulations to Aliff Aziz for winning Anugerah 2007! Hahaha.

I can't believe I follow that malay talent show laah. Oh I know why, it was because of Arshad. And he did perform again tonight. Nyehaha. Alright so this winner, it's like my age! Our age!! So young laa. What to do with the money haar..? Haha.

Okay, yeah. =)

So how am I these days..? Hmm, I never did have a good night's sleep ever since Friday. Because of alot of things. I always felt down, when I'm alone, that is. I've been hiding my feelings! Haha. Okay maybe not so well. But yeaap.

We had MT Listening Compre on Monday. I believe that we all had fun actually doing it. The invigilator so cute laaah. Haha. And then I was like laughing to the music and DJ before the passages were read. Haha. Then Tuesday, I had English prelim orals! I was high too for that. I just kept on talking and talking like Ms Ong was my best friend. Hahaa. I got out of the exam room feeling super duper high. =D

I suddenly smell ammonia. Hmms. Oh yeaah. We did a chemistry practical just now. Hahaa.


I've been wondering... I always make mistakes. I repeatedly make mistakes. I hurt people. I'm just useless in handling relations, yeah. From young I knew that I'll be better off alone. Not to be with anyone cause I'm a failure in that. I can communicate, I can talk, just that sometimes I lose myself and POOF.

However, no. I do not stop there. I want to work towards becoming a good friend. I've not been a good friend these days. I am very very sorry. I know it's of no use. After years of going through many problems, 'sorry' has become merely just a word of no meaning. I'll wait, until you are finally able to accept me again. I am sorry, my dear. But whatever happens, I'm still here whenever, wherever. ((:


And my dear Syamil, thank you for always being there for me. All the time, thank you soo much dear. Nothing can change my love for you~


I miss photography. I lost my photoshop. (I accidentally deleted it.) And my camera is like old. Haha. Can I bring my brother's SLR on Friday? Can can? Then I'll take pretty pretty pictures of the pretty pretty everyone. Yeaaah? Everyone wear nice2! Do not wear school uniform laah! Yea the classmates, let's win that percentage of people wear costume thingy. Haha. Okay never mind! Ignore me. Hahaha!

I'm crapping too much. Gaaah.


And I have a sudden craving for donut factory. Anyone care to join me for a 7 hours queue? Hahaa. =D


Hmms, let's study Hana.
Please uterus linings finish! Hahaha. It hurts like one kind you knoww. Haha.


Okay bye!

I didn't sleep well at all last night. Now it's 11pm, I feel weak and tired, but I'm still up and awake and blogging.

Last night, I was missing my darling, and waiting for him to contact me again. And he did, then my mind gone crazy and all, I just couldn't sleep. I stayed up awake staring at the ceiling for almost 3 hours. I was just staring. All the way till about 2.30am. It's amazing of Hana to sleep so late. Suddenly woke up at 6am laughing, cause I had a very, very, very, very ridiculous dream. And somehow that's the one thing that made me laughing all the way during physics lesson. Yeahhh.

Went to school for physics, I drifted off in class. I was thinking about Syamil all the time. I couldn't concentrate today. I really couldn't. I was also forcing myself to control my irritating attitude and emotions. Sadly, it showed during practicals. I was just like giving up on taking the readings of the mass in water thingy and measuring stuff. I just felt urghhhh. But somehow I was still very happily around people and enjoying life. =) Hehehe.

After school went to follow Nura, then went for lunch, then met my dear.

I love you so much dear. No matter what happens. I really love you.

Don't let me down, alright? Because I really really don't like youuu. (your sms tone.) Hahaha!

Alright so I reached home, my aunt was cutting my mother's hair. Even though I intended that as soon as I reached home I wanted to crash on my bed, I needed a haircut. And so my aunt cut my hair next. There's not much difference in my hair though. But it's very much layered and curlier/wavier now. Rebonded hair is leaving already. However, I find that my hair is nice, once I find that correct way of combing my hair and handling it. Hehe.

After that went down to Woodlands Mart and bought some groceries. Reached home and cooked dinner, ate, and cooked the chocolate biscuit. Hahaa.

My house is finally noisy again. I miss those noisy times. Nono, my aunt doesn't replace my sister, of course not. After my aunt staying for about 2 months, only now I saw the good of it. Only now I feel thankful for her being here. It took me a rather long time, but really, thank you. I may have got less privacy, but at least I got company at home. Just company to make me go crazy with and do all sorts of stupid things at home. To make me closer to my family. =)

These days, my house is a hectic place. I'm usually the last one to leave home, and can be the first one to reach home, at 5pm. The house is only noisy in the early hours of the morning or during dinnertime. Things have changed, a lot. And I like this change. Somehow I feel that my mother is a lot closer to me now, she let's me tell her everything, but I don't want to just yet. She knows I have a boyfriend, she knows and have met Syamil. She doesn't disapprove and at the same time she doesn't encourage. But that's enough for me. I know that these last four months of school will pass by real quickly.

Thank you.

Happiness and to be with all the people I love is all I ever need. That is enough to make my life the best life ever.

I'm looking forward to the holiday after Os, which MIGHT happen. My father is intending to get me on the airplane all alone and spend about 1 or 2 months with my sister. I don't mind, as long as I got a handphone and mybabyApple. And of course some money. I'm looking forward to travelling alone. I love travelling, and not yet travelling alone. I hope it'll happen. One more thing to look forward to after Os.

So jiayou Hana! You can do it! Work hard for your Os because there are manyyy rewards after this stage. Aja Aja!

((:

I'm feeling very apologetic today, and yesterday too. But more of today. Today is a day full of guilt, full of stupidity, full of tears. But full of love as well. =)

That's just briefly my day. Haha.

And I'm worried for like many people too. Gaaah. If only humans are born with no feelings. Everyone doesn't have an emotion. Then I won't be going through all this. Haha.

OKay mixed feelings. I'm getting irritated by myself, I'm getting irritated my laptop. I'm going crazy.

Syamil not going to contact me anytime soon too.

Khairani are you okay..?

I need to destress. Mama, would you please give me a massage?
(she gives the best massages.)

Alot of people went to watch Harry Potter today. Nobody please tell me anything about it. I don't feel like watching it suddenly. Friday to Sunday seems to be the free-est days, and ticket is $9.50. I want to go on weekdays. Cheaper laaah. Gaaaaah. Wilson still owes me a movie. I still remember okay? Grrr.

I still need to fill my application.

I want to go back the council. Like now. I miss it, really. Still taking time to adapt. It's hard.

And, I need to meet that woman with the dog who always scolds the students again. I regret not telling her everything on my mind. I could even challenge her. Ok I can't think about her. Makes my blood boil. Haha.

Oh God, please let me straighten my mind out. Please let me think of only one thing at one time, and please let me focus on my studies. Please allow me to do my best in my studies and excel and make the people I love proud of me.


I think I'm PMS-sy today. I tear/cry at every sad thing that happens. And I'm very whiny. I don't like that. I was whiny to Syamil, my dad and my brother. Haha. Okay I shall shut up.

I shall go before I make myself mad.

And someone get me a new handphone. And please repair my dying internet connection.


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Can I don't blog anymore? Can?

Study, study, study. That seems to be everything anyone does right now. Yeahh, it's true. School just destroys our life. But accept that studying is life. Haha! Okay fine I'm not the best person to say that. But yeahh, I've got to studyy!

Last 3 days, what happened..? Hmms. 4/5 got a more detailed description of giving birth! Woohoo all needles and blood. Nyehaha. Though how much details she puts into telling us that child birth is painful, it's worth it. And that's why girls are meant to be giving birth, not guys. =P

What else..? Let's see. Life is different. School life is different sitting down in the parade square for the first time in 2 years and looking at the stage as the audience. But i got used to it. Thankfully. Hehe. And it really feels that suddenly graduating students are shut out from the school cause I don't see any peers running around the school anymore. Haha.

And my darling Syamil, I really, really love you. Nothing can ever replace you and nothing shall ever get in between us ever again. =)


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Student Council Investiture was today. I bid farewell to the Student Council. I almost teared saying those words during my speech, I almost cried when shaking hands with Yong Lin, I teared when the video was played (though I helped in doing it), I cried when I was hugging Angel.

I was depressed the whole day. Apart from that, I was really tired. Maybe it was because I slept about 4 hours only. Hehe. But yeaa, no more badge wearing, no more going to the council room in the morning. And I have a confession. I have never sat with my class during morning assembly for 2 years. Tomorrow will be the first time. Heh.

It does feel like a part of my life has been taking away just like that. Angel dear, we will be strong. =)

I miss all of it already. I miss the busy-ness, I miss the hyper-ness, I miss everything now.

Well, it's now all back to studying and focusing on only one thing. It's 4 more months and it's all done! So yeaa. Study study study! A new me coming up! Lol. Pray hard that it happens! (:

I'm having a very bad headache now. A very, very bad headache. And it's literally the whole head. I don't know what happened! Haish.

Okay I'm going to sleep early today. I'll try. Haha.


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I am going to miss this bunch of people. And of course a lot more. One year has passed, we say goodbye to the 5th Student Council and say hello to the 6th Student Council.

Tomorrow is the day that we'll formally hand over everything. I'll hand over the whole council to Yong Lin. I wish you all the best and I hope that the council will improve and reach greater heights. =)

For the past 2 and a half years of the council, I have noticed many changes in the council, and how things are handled. The council has been the one who made me stay strong. The council has always been there for me in my worse situations. When I was alone, or had nothing to do, I would turn to the council, and I will pick myself up just like that. It has been my company throughout the years. I've devoted all my heart and soul to it. And tomorrow, 9th July, I will bid goodbye to it.

I've met new friends, new companions through this journey. I've met leaders of all kinds. I've met people of all kinds. All these gave me new experiences for me to apply to daily life. Two and a half years is really a lot. It is a big part of my life. My secondary school life, to be exact.

Everyone who has been there for me, to witness all my life changes in the council. Thank You. I couldn't have done it with you.

Those who have graduated were the ones who were always there for me at my weakest point. When I was alone, when I was stressed with everything, when everything was anything. I will remember every single one of you. To my peers, thank you for always supporting me and guiding me into the right direction. My juniors, thank you for always giving me that encouragement and support that I needed. I can never thank all of you enough. I love every single one of the councillors.

=)

I hope all goes well for the 6th Student Council, and I wish all the best, Yong Lin and the 6th 6th exco.

And Hana is always here to come back anytime. ((:

I've been watching Live Earth since 7pm, nonstop. Haha. I feel like staying up all night.

Well, at least all the way till Syamil reaches home safely after work. As long as I know he's safe, I can sleep with peace.

Hmm, if you have noticed, I've removed my wishlist from the right side. Hehe, cause one thing cancels out oh-so-slowly. So I decided to just remove it. Haha. But well just to tell you people out there, I need a new watch. Get me a new watch! Cause cause, I broke mine. Haha. I was just fiddling around with it and the plastic part just broke with a PAK. Hehe.

Alright CIP today was okay. Made frequent trips back to home. Heheex. Other than that, I still feel that we had collected more stuff last year. Yeahh.

I seem to have not to be doing any schoolwork these days. I've not been doing anything much too. And I kept saying "until Monday". Those 2 words. Hahaa. Okay never mind.

I suddenly forgot what to blog about.

Hehe, and I'm still waiting for you dear.

Live Earth, love the earth! =)

1) I ran here and there during morning assembly, didn't witness what happened to Mr Radha.

2) I just realised today was the last day I would be able to say "good morning, announcements for today."

3) I kept drifting off in class, couldn't stay focus. I teared.

4) Until Ms Lim showed us the blocks. Haha, I would be doing my own house! =)

5) Started getting happy, Biology and Chem was fun.

6) I think Mr Cheong really has high hopes on me. He keeps saying that I can do it! Just put in more effort and I will reach my goal! He actually does make me work hard. Boy, I'm going to miss him alot.

7) I played daidi in class. I had fun, actually. Though I didn't win as many times. Hahaa. My classmates really know how to create chaos. Haha.

8) After school went to comp lab. Was really feeling down when I found out I couldn't transfer my files. I got stressed.

9) Ran out of school and hugged my dear. I bought slurpee and we sat down and joked around. I love him so.

10) Humanities focus study. For the first time I diligently did what was assigned to do. I was proud of myself. (:

11) Was released early, went to causeway point with Yoges.

12) Finally bought the materials for investiture. Spent within budget. Oh yeahh.

13) I got myself cheeseballs.

14) I cried.

15) Last but not least, we will hold on strongly dear. No matter what happens.
I love you alot. Really alot. So I beg of you, hold on..



That was my day. =)

Happy Birthday my darling Khairani!

(:

May all your wishes and dreams come true, may you be happy all the time.
I love you alot alot alot!
Must smile always kayy. Smile alot2 and you'll live longer.
Omma loves Mangkuk many2! =)


Happy Birthday Sharifah!

and

Happy Birthday Kit Ki!

I've been putting very random pictures up here. I just randomly chose an album, then randomly chose a picture. Haha.

Today isn't considered as a good day. But it was alright. Wasn't in the best of moods, and I'm not going to use PMS as an excuse ever. PMS is just a stupid phrase. Haha.

But maths, I'm finally getting it. Woots~ Haha. And Biology has always been fun. Mdm Ho keeps telling the short people to accept the fact that we are short people! Hahaa. Then chemistry practical, I was super duper happy that I could get to answer the concentration question all by myself! Hahaha.

Then met my dear, ate lunch, then cooled off for orals. I can't describe how nervous I felt. I couldn't even read the passage properly. Haha. But it's all over now. Yeahh. =)

Went back for focus study even though I didnt intend to. Haha. And I did some questions! That sense of accomplishment. That feeling which you can get only when effort is put in. The feeling when you are all tired but when you sit back, you feel goood.

And walked home with Mira and Firah. Long time since that happened! Haha. I love you gerls. =) And went to sleep shortly after reaching home. Hehe.

And after many2 pestering from people, I finally finished my speech. Haha.

2 more days!

Okay I'm sleepy.


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OKay I forgot to blog about one more thing. Hahaa. I still got one hour left!

Happy Birthday Lex!!

=DD

Hahaa. Yep may all your wishes and dreams come true kayy? And you're now 16!!

Alright2. goone!

OK the picture is veryyy random. Hahaa!
Oh yeah I just realised something in the picture!

Promoting NJRC once again! Nyehaha. I'm wearing NJRC '05, Mangkuk wearing NJRC '06. Hahaa! Yes so people who want join GO TO TAVIN! Not meee. Let me concentrate on prelims okayy? Hahaha.

Alright I am going to blog about the weather. Hahaa.
So global warming is really affecting us. Hahaa. It's getting hotter and hotter than usual. And when it rains, it gets reallyyyy cold. Agree? Yea then the heat really gets to us, especially in class. It just gets us real sleepy and practically nothing goes into our heads. Correct? Hahaa.

OKay I'm getting lame.

Yes the lameness from Syamil gets to me. Like alot laa. Okay I'm irritating myself..

Hmm as you all may have noticed, my blog is dying. Haha. I, Hana, have lost the mood and interest to blog anymore. I can't find any topics to blog about, I can't find anything interesting to talk about.

There are only photos, photos, and more photos. That is also, if I am not too lazy. Haha. And you knoww, the blogskin, that cloud picture, confuses me. Haha. The sun come from where? OK figure it out yourself. Hahaa.

Alright I gotta do other stuffs now.


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Hehe. Yes yes, that is Sleeq. And yesterday was my first time I knew their existence. Hahaa!

So yesterday evening, I went to Raffles Girls' School for a Malay Cultural Concert. So the first half were all the traditional acts, then after that the modern.

OKay let's see, I went out of home at 5pm, then went to my cousin's house first. She wanted to clear her wardrobe. Haha, I got new stuff! But I haven't collected yet. Hehe.

Alright then we took the MRT to orchard. In the MRT, and in Orchard, I was people-watching all the way. Everyone was dressed sooo nicely. Of course, i was too. =P Haha! I looked at how people dressed, and then assumed where they were going and all. Haha. I was thinking of the National Stadium, then the Youth Park thingy, then the Christina Aguilera concert. Haha. There were like sooo many places everyone could have gone. But I concluded that most of the people went shopping before 1st of July. Haha.

Yeah, all pretty woman. Clothes, dresses, the hair. The shoes. Gaah, someone donate me money. I need it. Wahahax!

OK at orchard met 3 more of my cousins, then we had a hard time looking for the bus stop. Haha! We were like lost people. Heh. But in the end we found it, and made our way to RGS. Yeahh. Then concert started about 7.45pm.

Aaah I can't remember who went on stage first. But the malay dance performance, saw my cousin. She looks very matured. She's 2 years younger than me, and she looks older than me. Getting prettier by the day! Hehe. There was a silat performance too. And that girl, that very hyper gerl, performed twice, back to back. Both silat and malay dance. I really admire her laa. And pretty too! Haha.

There was also a dikir barat performance by Temasek poly. And if you ask me, I didn't feel it was a dikir barat at all. It was like a standup/sitting down comedy. Haha. I just kept laughing all the way! They were like singing "are you sleeping" at first. Then I don't know how it became some Backstreet Boys song. Then Humpty Dumpty. Hahaa. Pure crap laa those people. Then after their performance they all made noise in the audience. Ok I shall not comment about those people. Hehee.

Yeah theeen, some skit. Theen ok there was a break. Then the performances by Sleeq and Imran Ajmain! Nyehahaha.

OKay I just screamed extraly. Haha. When nobody screamed, I did. Hahaa. I was the only crazy one. All my cousins, 6 of them, and my aunt were like staring at me pretending they don't know me. Haha. I was like having fun by myself, I don't why. I didn't even know them at all. Haha.

But Sleeq, haha. Theyre both cute! Wahahax. Well at least they didn't make me cry cause the songs were fast. Imran Ajmain songs made me cry. I mean really. They were all like "perpisahan" which means err, (omg i dont know) but it's something like not together or something like that. I mean it's like all sad love songs lor! And I cried cause, I MISS MY SYAMIL SO THE MUCH!

Hehe. But I kept it in. Yes I did. =)

Alright then the concert finished, me and one of my cousins went to look for her sister. The one that performed. So we went to their holding room, which was beside Sleeq's/Imran Ajmain's holding room. Wahahax. Ok I'm going mad.



Ignore my ugly face laa. I was really tired. Hahaa. And he wasn't bending down. Nyehaha! OK shut up Hana.

Study laaa! =)

Okay I'm gone.


PS: What do you think of my new blogskin? Haha the cloud/sun picture up there looks fake right? I took that picture okay! Oh wait, I think it's Syamil. Then yeah I edited it. Wahahax.


ok I love you my darling! I miss you soo much. =)