1. No picture today.

2. I got my results, no comments about it. Let's all pray that I'll get into the course I want.

3. I'm still working at the same old place. And sleeping like a pig when I'm not. Take this, 12 hours of sleep per day. Today, I got my butt off the bed to get on the computer to update this. And realised, there isnt much a need to do so.

4. I am lost in the working world. Friends are gone to i-dont-know-where. I don't even see Khairani anymore, though we work at the same place, same outlet.

5. I miss them fucking loads.

6. I am enjoying work, but I have yet found the time to go shopping. Those many hours of working has its outcome right..? So yeah. (: Maybe, after CNY, where everything is stabilized and more staff come in. Okay? No more strong girl. I am slowly getting sick of "sayaang! come here and help me.."

7. I need my one and only sayang.

8. I need someone to give me a good enough reason for me to stop working too.

9. I'm catching movies tomorrow. Wherever it may be, as long as I can reach work at 10pm. I shall survive on coffees yeah? There's a reason why I work at COFFEE CLUB. Haha.

10. I miss you.

That's just a random picture.

Okay firstly. Has anyone seen my book? P.S. I Love You by Cecilia Ahern. The last I remember is lending it to a classmate, then it being passed around. And somehow it's missing now? I want it back can? Please.



Secondly. I must remember to bring my camera wherever I go. I seem to always forget it these days. Come on lah Hana, your new camera is smaller ok? So must bring. You see, I have this thing against camera phones. So a digital camera is still the best. =D Hehe.



How are my days? I've been working. Slowly getting tired of it. I am enjoying work, but at times it just gets me angry. I love all my BABIs at work, they are the greatest. Yep, we call each other BABI. We don't sensor our words over there. Hehe. I am contemplating whether to quit or not, and when to quit. It may be hard labour, but I enjoy it. Listening to French, German, Japanese, Spanish, almost every accent. And saying 'ITADAKIMASU' to the Japanese after serving the food. And looking at their impressions. And listening to their stories of travelling here and there. It's fun actually.


Thursday night, was the first time I did a night shift. I worked from 10pm till 8am the next morning. And I survived! Haha. It was cool actually. But I slept in the bus back home. Haha.


Friday, 18th January 2008.
A day I will always remember.
We had a lovely date. Being religious too. It was nice, to be going out and stopping by the mosque to pray, before going anywhere else. It was cool, when my mother called, and I said "I'm with him," and stopped her naggings. Finding out nightlife at esplanade, for the first time. Haha! I don't think I want to go back there. We'll see.

I love you, my darling. Even if I am officially or unofficially with you. Even if you're not with me. Even if everyone is against us. Even if all your friends hate me. Even if all other problems prevent us from being together. I will always love you. (:


Saturday, all day working. Haha. It was fun though. 15 hours nonstop. Woots! Haha. But nearing the night, I got pissed. Cause well the manager that was with me throughout the day was as crazy as me. But then at night he went home, a new manager came, and another manager came, and put more pressure on me.
Ok look at this.

Manager 1: Hana, you doing bar is it? Okok go do!
Manager 2: Eh since when she do bar? She part-timer don't need to learn what.
(at this point I was going to smack him like PAK!)
Manager 1: Don't know lah. Manager 3 asked her to learn maybe.
Manager 2: Eh Hana, Manager 3 ask you to learn bar is it?
Me: Yah yah. (I was busy making drinks and stuff. It was full house.)
10 minutes later...
Manager 2: Hana! I need you on the floor! (means to be a waitress and takes orders from customers and stuff.)
Me: But I'm doing bar! And you have enough people doing that already what! (I was almost screaming at that point.)
Manager 2: But you see, you think they all can be used? All the people can be used are at the wrong places. (points at them.)
Me: (i went on complaining about my shirt being ruined due to chocolate sauce and syrups and coffee and stuff. but still went on to do the floor to keep his mouth shut.)
Manager 1: HANA! What you doing there? You're supposed to be doing bar!
(I looked at the clock.)
Me: It's 10.55pm. Can I go now?

So I stomped off without even getting their permission. Let me tell you, Saturday nights at the airport is horror. There are people everywhere. Restaurants are always full, everything. The situation was very tensed.

So, later that night, Manager 1 asked me, "were you angry at me?" I was like HA-HA. I wasn't angry at them lah actually. I could put myself into their shoes, and being all confused and everything. I understand. I guess 15 hours just was too much, especially with people ordering me around. Doing it my way, I would be fine. (:

Hana will always be Hana. Hehe.

I still love my BABIs. Oh yeah, on top of that, I may feel guilty if I quit work. Cause practically more than half of the staff there are still under training. So hooray to all! Haha.




Shut up about work Hana. It's off day today.

(someone just called me to take over her for work today. 11am till 12.30am.) Haha!

I'm sorry. I need my sleep. Heex.



Will someone come over to my house to swim today? I want to go swimming, but I've got no friend. Please? Come over to my house kay? I will love you many2! Hehee. (:



Alright I'm hungry. GOne!


(:

Taken on 5th January 2008. Those were the Ex-Riversidians that came back during the Sec One Orientation Camp, the campfire.

I've been wanting to blog since a long time.


I'm on 3 days MC, thus I have time. (: Yes I have been sick. Haha.



So, the last I updated was the 4th of January, about the school withdrawal symptoms. Haha. I guess right now, I'm over that. Ever since the campfire. Yes yes. I shall blog about that. Haha.

On that Saturday, I went out of my house super early, and went to some school at Yishun first. Lol. Then went to have lunch, then went to Riverside for the CCA Open House. I came rather late, didnt catch any performance. So I just walked around with dearest Angel. I miss her loads ok? Yeah then learnt that RS dance. So it figures, that when I'm older, I learn dance much easier. Not like last time, it took years for me to get the steps right. Haha. Look what intensive "clubbing" has done to me. Hahaa! No I don't go clubbing okay.

Dinner, actually after dinner, I went on shouting. Haha. It has been a long time since I shouted. So it's okay right? I'm sorry my dear juniors if I ruined anything.

Yeah then campfire. Alright it was rather boring for us alumnis. Well, I got really emotional. Not just because of missing school, but also the past. I was getting real sad, but I did get rather hyper. Hehe. Then more emotional things came. Yeah those people up there saw me cry. Ok it was real dark, maybe they didn't. Dearest Yong Lin did. It was sad okay. Yeah alright, I don't wish to go on anymore.


So that's 5th January. The days that went on after that, I really felt possessed. I felt as if it wasn't me at all. I worked like crazy shit. I slept only 3 hours a night, kind of thing. That is completely not me. Yes, that explains not blogging for a long time.


Shall not remember that week.


But there are those times that I was saved, so that I won't be drowned by this unknown feeling. That unknown Hana. When I broke down and cry, singing and crying at the same time. You were there, as always. Like you have always been. For these past years.


Friday, 11th January. Was my best day of 2008. Despite me falling real sick, despite the tiredness, despite the sleepiness, it was just great. Haha like the nurse said "always bring friends when visiting a doctor." Haha! When everyone was feeling super hot, I was shivering like one kind. Thank you for you jacket. (:

Playing pool, and a super long bus trip. Yes, that's on Amir's blog. Haha. That happened in the first hour of the bus ride. Then rest was spend on Encik Amir's and Encik Syamil's and Cik Hana's confessions. Haha. Okay I don't know what that meant. But yeahh. Haha.


And then yesterday was a movie outing with him. =) Then I got really sick again. I mean until I couldn't walk kind of stage. Was really in pain. Then tried to eat, couldn't eat much. So we took a cab home.


And Muhammad Syamil Bin Bueari met my parents. =D




Yes, those are my days. (:


So tell me, should I feel guilty? Everyone reads my blog. And some people know what I've been up to. And some don't. Thus I shall be ready for spammers. Haha.


ok I'm gone for now.


(:

Happy 2008! Haha. Yeah I'm like very slow.


I love those people up there okay? 8 of us cousins. And yeah we're all girls. And the pictures proves that poor eyesight is hereditary. Haha. I'm wearing lenses, by the way. It still counts. Haha.


So any new year's resolutions? I didn't even have time to think it over. Haha.

Anyway, I've been trying to upload more pictures to blogger to publish, but somehow it just fails. So wait a little longer for more unique photos. =D


Life's been fine. Except for recently, I guess. Bumps here and there. Because of a big mistake that I made. Ohwells, that's all forgotten. Time to move on, yeah? (:

I can't sleep. I'm excited for tomorrow. Haha.


Well you see, I'm actually suffering from withdrawal symptoms. No I didn't quit smoking or drugs. Withdrawal symptoms from school. I mean after 10 years of schooling, I'm actually not in school even after school reopened. Especially when my last 4 years was spent devoted my life to school. My mind was in school. School. School. Almost nothing else.
And now, I don't have that anymore. I'm searching for a meaning in life. No more school. What do I have? I'm not liking work that much anymore. It makes my blood boil. Haha.


Yes, that means, i miss school. Like aLOT. Really aLOT. I mean it.

Therefore, I'm excited to go to school tomorrow. =D

Darn. I should have agreed in staying overnight. I mean for the camp, staying over and all. It's okay, I wouldn't have any friends anyway if I did. Haha. Oh yeaaah! I'll be seeing all (ok it's some) of you people tomorrow! Haha.



Before all of that, it's youuuu. (:




Shall try to sleep yeah? I have been having lack of sleep. Heex.

ta.