Now this is MIA.

It's been a few days, and I shall keep you in suspense. Haha. OKay maybe I'm not as happy as I sound right now. But I'm still trying to enjoy life as it is. (:

Yeah you can't get me by my phone. Either phones. But if you do call, you'll here a manly voice. Yes Hana's gone lowww. Low low low. Okay stop it. Get that song out of your head. :D Haha. Yes it's diverted, to my dearest beloved. (:

Lots have been happening right now. And I have yet to blog about NPSU FO Camp too. I have alot of time right now. So it doesn't hurt doing it now.

So for the first day. It was a disappointment. I had a lot to complain about. I didn't enjoy much. I didn't mingle much too. That was one reason. Reason #2 was because I kept my phone for safe-keeping on that day. I only got it back at 3 in the morning. I was having such a bad time lor.

Day #2, some of my groupmates left camp cause they were too fed up with the whole situation. But I stayed on! Oh yeah I glad I did. It was fun laah. We had dirty station games all. And i think my voice stays on for a long time, yeah. When everyone lost theirs, I still have mine. Rather coarse, but I still can shout. (: That's what 4 years of NJRC Cheer team does to a person. OKay, me. Haha. At night it was a bit down for me, personal issues. I hope that's all left behind yeah.

Spent that night crying.

Anywaaaay. On the 2nd day morning, I woke up about 7.30, or 8 around there, and I had a little glimpse outside the sports hall. And omggg! I simply loved the sunrise. But okay, at that time I missed quite alot of it. So on the 3rd day morning, I woke up super early cause #1, I couldn't sleep well. And #2, I wanted to catch the sunrise.

I have a few pictures of it in my phone, I'll upload it later. (: Much later, maybe. Haha.
The sunrise all alone, it was nice lah. But soon after my groupmates joined me. Haha.

3rd day activites were boring, but I got more friendly! Haha. So yeah la. There were 6 MCM people in my group, more than enough to create a havoc. Haha. MCM + ECH = total chaos. Haha. Anyway that means mass comms and early childhood. Haha. High crazy people! (: And I looove the mass dance laah. Though I'm abit scared of my dance partner that was randomly chosen. Haha. =x

They was this war game. I got angry laah. Hana being Hana, that's me when things just get out of control and stuff. Especially when people get hurt and all. I was screaming and shouting. And about 200 people? Haha. There was about 750 people in total that turned up for the camp, anyway. So, get the picture.

Then then! Campfire! Haha high high! I was like one of the few that remembered the cheers like from the beginning to the end. And that small girl to lead. And you knowwww. There was one time I had to teach the group, of 120 people at the grandstand. So I stood at the nearest step to the first row, then they complained I was too near and their ears were hurting. Then I moved down one, they complained I was too short! Hahaa. OKay yeah. Story of how short I am. =D

(Wow Hana is good at making herself high even though she isn't at this moment.)

Yeah Campfire we cheered and cheered. And at a random note, I love Firah! ((: Haha. And okay that night! I didn't sleep at all. For fear of getting my face drawn or colgate-ed. Haha. Yeah NPSU had that tradition. If anyone slept on the last night, they would have their faces or hands or anyway drawn on by markers. Haha. But sometimes, they go colgate. I was scared of that. So I didn't sleep! I stayed with my group and played games, sing song, told stories, everything. Haha. It was cool! =D

Day #4. Everyone got sad. Yeah it was sad. But I didn't cry. That was even sadder. =( I don't want to talk about that yeahh.

SO I didn't sleep right, so that was when my days of horror began. I couldn't differentiate between reality and lala-land. Up until now. I still can't believe I'm really where I am. Heh.

Met with my love, got even more dirty, played games, and I slept. But I was still having a hard time. Lala land? Reality? When I got home on Sunday I slept. The next day, lala land? reality? I was stupid laaah. Really stupid.

I don't know what happened. But I seemed to have slept alot. Really alot. It was hard. All the way till Wednesday. Barged into someone's house. Still blur. The next day, still blur, means crying and crying nonstop. Until I have a cough right now. A flu, headache. It is sooo bad. Life wasn't getting any easier. I wanted to die. Really die. I still do? Maybe.

Yesterday, was a Thursday? Was even blurrer. My Mom quit work? I don't know lah really.

You want to know more? I'll update again soon. Don't worry. I have a lot of time on my hands. I think.

By the way, I'm not going for the FMS FO Camp. Or the Induction. And hopefully not the first day of school. So, yeah. That's me for now.


And I'm still in love with Syamil. Nobody can stop me from that. He's mine and only mine. (:



OKay ta!